Wednesday, January 8, 2014

genuine

My dear Malaysian readers,

Since you make up the second largest group of my audience out there in  blogger-land, only a few less than the top group, I want to thank you for being here with me.  i also know i can safely confide in you, because i don't know anyone in your country, so i feel comfortable sharing my heart, deeply, yet again with you.

   

today i must rant.

Recently....shortly after baring my heart and soul to another individual...someone whom i thought i could trust..(2 of them) these same people turned around and immediately, it seemed, or within the next 36 hours, posted something online about how much they love their _________. i mean, i can see how that can be an innocent, sweet thing to do, and on most occasions i will try to let it go and not blame them.  but right after we have this discussion of my pain in this area.  just a coincidence?    do they not realize how hurtful this is? i mean, people all the time can easily get down on themselves when they spend too much time on social media and begin comparing their lives to those who only post glowing reports of how wonderful their lives are.  but to do this out loud, knowing the very person whom it will hurt the most is listening??? and i thought i could trust these people.  just makes me not want to trust them even more.  it's so frustrating.  doesn't anyone anyone ANYONE understand???????? (sigh). this is the very stuff that makes me want to go jump in a lake and never come up for air.  EVER.  how can they be so insensitive? just rude. my world is crashing down on me and they dare....inflict this cruel & unusual punishment on me. their telling me what to do is just keeping me in my prison.

ok, forgive me. i've ranted enough.  may i please come to malaysia and lie on your beautiful beaches by the sea? i'll learn the language. teach me to fish and i'll eat for a lifetime.  you can braid my hair. i'll teach you english.  (oops, i apologize, i just did a little research and learned that you people are very educated and know many languages.  that puts us americans to shame. sorry about that comment. you have much more to teach me!!!!)  ;-)



so here's some good news.  one of these above-mentioned "friends" (yes, we're still friends) also commented that i seemed much more genuine than i've been in the past.  recalling some of the explicit details i may have shared and rough ways of expressing myself to her more refined, clean-cut ears, i don't know if i should take this as a compliment or not, but i will, i can use whatever i can get.  And what's funny is, this "compliment" came just 48 hours after receiving this same kindness from a friend at work.  see, we have these little blank "happy" notes that we're encouraged to share with our co-workers from time to time, and i got this one just the other day.  perhaps what sparked it was the night, not long ago, when she & i worked the closing shift, and after we were all done and everyone else had gone home and it was dark and late at night, her ride still hadn't arrived so i sat outside in the cold with her for 30 minutes or so, and just talked to her about her life, her future aspirations, stuff like that.  just a young person trying to figure things out, and of course i wasn't going to just leave her there in the parking lot all by herself on this late night saturday night. not trying to brag here.  just saying that i'd much rather be known for being genuine and a listening ear to anyone, no matter what their walk in life, than trying to live by some standards another person sets for me.

now about that fishing lesson.  when's the next flight to Malaysia???

Selamat pagi!!  (good morning)  , Selamat tengah hari (good afternoon!)   Selamat petang (good evening!!)   or  Selamat malam (good night!!)






now about that fishing lesson.  when's the next flight to Malaysia???

Selamat pagi!!  (good morning)  , Selamat tengah hari (good afternoon!)   Selamat petang (good evening!!)   or  Selamat malam (good night!!)




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