happy awkward day.
my valentine's gift to myself: time alone reading a great book. a great book with lots of great quotes on life. here's one:
"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards: they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then, do what you need to do, in order to have what you want."
I was also reminded, on this VD, of a song performed long ago by the late Whitney Houston. At the time I was much younger, obviously, and also a very young Christian. The song celebrated some new ideas that weren't normally sung about in popular music, something about loving yourself, instead of the usual sappy love songs about mushy romance between a couple. The idea of loving yourself was a bit shocking at the time, it seemed so selfish. But now I'm realizing that it's talking about the kind of love you need to have for that real person God made you to be, the real truth behind "loving your neighbor as yourself", as you cannot love another person until you are completely whole and complete in who you are. As a Christian I know that Jesus Christ is the completion of who I am. He is my Alpha and Omega. He created me, He redeemed me, I am His. But it takes the course of a lifetime for us to truly live this out, through all the paths we walk down, seeing how the image of Christ is reflected in the very unique nature of our created earthly self. So many things I'm learning in this season of my life. And I have only just begun. I hope to share more of that here, as I continue blogging, if I may.
So here's the song. I do so miss Whitney Houston. A beautiful voice. A beautiful person. Just trying to navigate her own life, sadly shortened as it was.
"Greatest Love Of All"
Happy Valentines Day.