Tuesday, July 22, 2014

just a thought

Recently i've had the weird sensation, and i'm not sure whether i was awake or asleep, but i had the very real sensation of dying.  Of leaving this present consciousness and entering a very peaceful place.  It was kind of nice, but that scares me, because maybe that's something that my subconscious mind is really desiring at this point.  Just to be gone.  non-existent.  except for in the spiritual realm, of course, i would be with Jesus.  no more strife.  no more trying to convince everyone that what i feel in my heart is so true.  i could just prove it by letting go.  pulling the plug. just put an end to it all.  so simple.  and yet so selfish.  that i must endure this after all.

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