I was originally going to call this post something like, "Cardio Photo Remix", as I was listening to some high-energy cardio dance music on Pandora the first half of my run this morning. Was also running along this picturesque trail, next to a stream, perfect photo opps everywhere. So I was laughing at how I must look, like this crazy multi-tasking adult ADHD-infested woman, running along the trail, then suddenly darting off the path and down to the water to take some pictures, usually in ridiculous positions, then high-tailing it back down the trail as the fast cardio music pounded in my brain and kept me going. But..
as I enjoyed all the beautiful scenery and was calmed by the quiet, natural surroundings, I switched my station to some nice Christian praise & worship music for the second half of my run, and let the music and God's presence in nature speak to me.
I am so often like this Road Closed sign, with the Lord. I see these broken pieces in me, like this broken cement, this path that cannot be easily journeyed down, and I say, "Lord, that's far enough. This road is closed, I can do it myself. You stay out."
Yet I know that He just wants to smooth out those roads, make it so clear to me where my journey is leading next. Even if it is one dimly lit step at a time. Baby steps.
Only You see the Big Picture, God. Like from my view high up in this tree, where I can see the rushing water below, even to the bottom of the stream, You see the bottom of my heart, when all I see and feel is the rushing chaotic waters of my soul.
And You beckon to me, saying, "Taste, and see, that the Lord is good." I know that, Lord. I know. I know...
My haiku: Worship Music
though my heart rages
and my mind rebels. please, Lord
speak to my spirt.
