escape

 

        Left my dream back there

    underneath all the baggage

       carousel turning

                                                                                   thoughts too personal

                                                                                 in and out of the shadows

                                                                                  next flight, Timbukktu

streetlights & drive-thru napkins

 

       

        

           Ms. Rule Follower

      smile, act right, talk right, walk right

       inside i want to die

         when this night is over

        I'll try to be the good girl

         yes i'm saved but sad.

them

  

      Lord, it's too hard

    do I settle and pretend

  or break hearts, drop jaws?

      they don't understand

     not yesterday's new flavor

     but way back, way deep.

  

     thankful for Real Ones

    who listen without judging

   pray more than they preach

   

    

2 dark 4 words

 

                   showers are the worst

      thoughts pour down like endless rain

            please just let me out

          devil don't tease me

      if I can't have what I taste

        then rip out my tongue

          putting it all down

         is therapeutic to me

        no rhyme, some reason

Sovereign

 

                         Lord you are sovereign

                You rule over land and sea

                 and love even me.

ironic

 

        weird. wrong. ironic.

     BFF's bridal shower

     why the mixed feelings

glazed comfort

 

    when I'm feeling sad

   and nothing makes sense at all

   donuts satisfy.

brokenness

 

        

        wearing the color

    of dirt today, still feels too

    flashy. #unworthy

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     Prayers needed this afternoon.  thank you.

                      

         

                                  

click send

 

   call paramedics

  begin CPR, listen

  is there a heartbeat

  

                                                                                        

                                                                                          ok here it is

                                                                                   the issue in a nutshell

      http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/3112965594                                                                                afraid to click send

blood & tears

 

                                                    would rather feel the pain

                                                    of a thousand bullets than

                                                      make someone else cry

                                             slice me, dismember 

                                        me, sprinkle salt in my wounds

                                            but please please don't cry

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