ADHD

 

          sometimes 

          in the middle of 

          a good cry

          a silly thought pops in and

          a big goofy grin breaks out

          I'm so weird,

          I can't even cry right. 

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         and I'm supposed to be how old????

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       When my 6-year old has to do something

      he doesn't want to do, he says,

      "Ok, but I won't be happy."

 

       oh how I can relate!!!!!!

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        I've learned more about life and love

        in these past 3 months

       than I've learned in 15 years.

        or longer.

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mess

 

    I want to hate but I can't

   I want to throw stones, spit, scratch, scream

   but I whimper

                                                   want to behave myself

                                                     can't do that either

                                                    what a twisted mess I am

http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/1994087516

roar

 

       why can't I just give up

       surrender 

       to the forces against me

       why do i  hold onto

       this last thread of hope

       regardless

       of what they say and do

       caged in 

       fear has silenced my mouth

      yet something still roars

       inside

http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/4076129883

       

tears

  

Psalm 6;6

I am worn out from my groaning.All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears

Psalm 126:5

Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.

Isaiah 8:5

“Go and tell Hezekiah, ‘This is what the Lord, the God of your father David, says: I have heard your prayer and seen your tears; I will add fifteen years to your life.

Lam.1:2

2 Bawling, she weeps without constraint every night,

    cries herself to sleep, bitter tears streaming down her cheeks.

Her former friends ignore her;

    there is no one there to share her sorrow;

Companions contend and have betrayed her;

    friends have been unfaithful and turned against her as enemies.

night run

got gotta run, like now

   night reflectors, check, pepper spray, AC/DC on mp3, plane ticket to singapore

   check, check, and i wish

   

http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/7533595464

freak show

 

      

         what's this, a freak show?

      expose the lame, the deformed

       watch them cringe in shame

http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/5851702834

p.s.

 

why o why, blogger app, do you torment me so?

ashes

 

            If anyone's work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, ^{H)" style="font-size: 0.65em; line-height: normal; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top; ">}but only                as through fire.    1 Cor. 3:15

http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/95655409

twisted thoughts

 

     no good options here:

    be a good girl, and trapped, sad,

    or bad, free, guilty.

     (other option: cease to exist. not an option.  yet.)

       wish it were easy

  just kneel at the altar, pray

       issues disappear.

     

       can't do this alone

  need someone who's on my side

     that would be you....Jesus.

 http://www.wylio.com/credits/Flickr/3891044252

express

       

     one brick off my chest

  shaking, still more bricks to go

  till this house falls down.