mad as a hatter

If this is what it's like...

to go crazy
insane
totally nuts-o
bezerk
emotionally troubled
schizo
mentally ill
deranged
out of reality
certifiable
demented
of unsound mind
sick in the head
lunatic
unhinged
disturbed
raving
psychotic
mad as a hatter...




then hot dang! I think I like it!
 I have never been more relaxed, at peace with myself, sometimes even joyful, lighthearted and laughing out loud for no reason..than I have been becoming day by day.
 No, it hasn't been a bed of roses, these past 15 months have been the hardest in my life, and the journey ain't over yet,
but these breaks in the clouds,
 rays of light,
 little things that make me smile,
have made it all worth it.
It's so weird that this is what it took for me to finally feel comfortable in my own skin.  I may never get the world to understand this new me.
some may hate me,
some may veer away from me, ('stay away from the crazy lady, kids...")
some may feel sorry for me or try to change me..
they don't like the new me.  this new me that's really the old me with its snakeskin shed behind me, lying in a decaying heap in the past.

just thoughts.

pass the tea, Alice...drink up!!!!
BWA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HAAAAAAAA!!!!!!