worms & spiders & plums

I guess I'll be better off if I just return to my usual way of living, thinking that if I don't expect much, then I won't be disappointed.  Worked well for me this far in life, right??

I was silly to think I could expect anything more.  To actually be thrilled about life & love. ha.  That's for other people.  I'm just a worm.

So I'll set some boundaries, let myself get really fat & ugly, refuse to leave the house.  Avoid temptation.  Give up and give in.  Yep, like a brown recluse spider.  Just stay home and put the needs of others before mine.

And I'll stick in my thumb, and pull out a plum, and say "my, what a good girl am I!"



And die with a broken, lonely heart.  But I expected that anyway.