casting my net

So while on my run this morning, i had these thoughts...

i know it sounds terribly boringly unspontaneously grown-up and dull and non-dramatic
but...

i am thinking far ahead...thinking about casting my nets out beyond the shallow waters..



...and thinking about where i want to be
in ten years from now.

ok maybe eleven.

i can almost feel it now..the sights...the sounds...the smells...
i know things could change a little before then,
a few tweaks here & there,
God's intervention, slight changes of plans...
but i have to keep my eyes out there..
on the horizon of my dreams

i'm at a point now
where i realize
that even though i may have gotten off-track in some ways
and even those choices have been amazingly partially redeemed...
some things haven't changed.
some dreams in my heart,
dreams that just won't happen by sitting passively.
nope. been there done that.
so i'm thinking long-term
rolling up my sleeves
taking care of stuff
boring financial details,
legalities, crunching numbers...
preparing to do what i gotta do
choosing to live my life today
so that my future in-ten-years-from-now self
will thank me later.
small, serious choices and steps
that will be caring for others,
those precious brothers and sisters in my life,
choices that will benefit everyone involved
in the long run..
by encouraging and influencing them to trust God for themselves
to choose to put their own dreams before Him
so He can direct their steps.
For if we as parents don't live out our own passions,
our children will not have role models
to show them how to live impassioned lives,
and they will think all there is to life
is video games and waiting for life to pass them by.
And again for myself,
steps that will allow me
to use the talents and gifts I've been given
that will lead to more exciting and heartfelt choices and benefits later on.
Life is cyclical, not linear, i've learned...
it loops around
and i'm coming back to my former dreams & desires,
some unfinished business
So casting my net out upon the deeper waters
and trusting God for my catch.